Empty Cereal Box

Views From Inside an Adoptee

June 15, 2006

Winds of Homecoming

My adoption-related blog buddies haven't been around lately. I noticed some of their blogs have been inactive; one even seems to have been hacked. What's going on? Has anyone else noticed the quietude, or is it just that I haven't written anything noteworthy lately?

I came across this phrase in my writer's notebook today: "the sting of disregard." You know, those times when you feel so deeply about something, or you want to share something, and you do, but you get no indication of a hit? You ache for another little piece of the human neural network puzzle to click together. Those rare times. I'm not thinking ego gratification here, I'm thinking a reach out into the void and discovering, in rare moments, that you aren't quite as alone as you thought.

The law of falling bodies, my notebook also reminds me, is thirty-two feet per second. The Earth spins just over 1000 miles per hour (1670 km/hr). The Earth is also moving around the Sun at about 67,000 miles per hour. We are also moving with the Sun around the center of our galaxy and moving with our galaxy as it drifts through intergalactic space. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and I want to make myself so small I could disappear because it feels as if we're all falling and spinning so fast into the darkness, into something we cannot possibly understand.

I've felt despondant these past few days about many things, and I need to write about them here. I will eventually. But what better way to turn despondancy around than to start a new blog? I'm so weary of negativity and hand-wringing that I decided to dive into a new vision. I will continue with Empty Cereal Box because I'll always be adopted and will need to address the pain involved.

But sometimes I just need a break from all the suffering. I realize that you see what you look for, so my new blog, Winds of Homecoming, will represent a new direction for my heart and soul, where I can address things that are just at the corner of my eye, that haven't yet manifested in the material world, but that my intuition says is so necessary that they will naturally come into place because of need and of so many human beings yearning for them. It's a magical thing.

I added an interactive music station and a music favorites to my sidebar that lends a dimension to that part of me that seems to be moving in a direction away from the old ways of doing things. I can't explain it any better than that. Stop in, if you have a bit of time, and take a listen.

6 Comments:

Blogger Umbilicly Challenged said...

I have been here a lot !! I love your blog and the way you write. I like your taste in music too. So what is this song playing now?

Sarahxxx

15.6.06  
Blogger Marie Jarrell said...

Great name! I love it--umbilicly challenged. Thanks for your visits and you comment. I really appreciate both. The song that plays when you first hit the page is called "Fortress" by Pinback.

15.6.06  
Blogger kim.kim said...

Ooh your blog has music.Who has been hacked? I know KristenJean and my old addy have been taken over.

16.6.06  
Blogger HeatherRainbow said...

(((Marie)))

Kristen cancelled her blog. It's not hacked.

I just want to say that I love coming here and reading your blog. I am so interested in so many things that interest you... like healing plants! I spent a lot of time studying them. I will post your other blog on my site too. We are such complex people because of our experiences and how we chose to deal with them, that we tend to have many interests / outlets / multi views of big pictures.

I think those who aren't typing as much are going outside. Just a guess.

16.6.06  
Blogger Marie Jarrell said...

Thanks Kim.Kim and Heatherrainbow so much for your comments and for clarifying what happened to KristenJean's blog. I hadn't visted her site for awhile. Does it seem odd that the new site kept her old URL?

Yes, we are complex creatures indeed. But isn't it great!

16.6.06  
Blogger suz said...

hey. i dont come around often. i tend to limit my reading. lately adoption stuff has been excruciatingly painful and it sends me spiralling. good writers like you can do that.

but yeah, i am here and i am reading.

and my friend kristenjean had some major family issues wth her blog and decided to take it down. i was amused at the the replacement and shared it with her.

i like the music. cool.

16.6.06  

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